I am grouchy, grouchy, grouchy. The past week I have just been a bear. Autumn asked why I was so grouchy, but I didn't have a good reason. Stress I am sure. So much is going on right now. I am trying to get two finals done this week. I have to write two papers, each a minimum of 1700 words. Ugh, I have no desire to write them, but they will get done by midnight on Sunday. Probably under the gun as usual. The girls are so incredibly busy I am not sure how I am keeping their lives straight. Autumn with the play, school and starting Jr. Miss. I am really stressing about finding time to get her a dress. She did start singing lessons today so that is good. Tymber has a HUGE science project due as well. She wanted to do the project on her bunnies, the teacher said no, so the teacher came up with the brilliant idea of doing the project on goldfish. Great, no problem, oh wait yes there is a problem. The stupid fish keep dying. How can we do a project if we can't keep the fish alive long enough to observe. So the teacher tells her to go to Pet-Co because their fish last longer. BRILLIANT IDEA, because I have time to run to Idaho Falls every two days when these stupid fish kill over. She is discouraged and now I have to help her find a new project, one that is reasonable and will excite her. I nixed her making a robot as well. My house is a mess. Ugh Ugh Ugh, no time to clean, no time to have the girls clean. Every day is full of crap that needs to be done. Hope is feeling neglected I think, or maybe that is just my guilt talking. Plus the day of JR. Miss got changed. It is now on a school night instead of a Saturday. The Saturday they had planned was also the night of prom, that wasn't going to work, so now it is on a Thursday. Which means Autumn will have to miss school. Have I mentioned she has already missed a lot of school and I am always getting these stupid letters telling me she has missed school and I will need to meet with the principal if it continues. The principal can bite me. It is not like she is messing around or skipping classes. She is going to go back to the Dr. on Tuesday. I know it is all stress related and we will get through it. She and I both knew it was going to be a bad few months for her.
This is just one huge rambling post. It doesn't even make sense. It is late and too much is going through my head right now. Thank goodness I am only taking one class the next 9 weeks. I may even take a week off school before the next class starts, to get caught up on my house. Then my math class is supposed to start the week before Jr Miss. Ummm, not going to happen, no way no how. That will be put off a week as well. I was supposed to start math first but knew there was no way with Autumn being so busy, I couldn't put her or myself through it right now. In the grand scheme of things a few weeks will not matter as far as getting my degree goes, but it may save my sanity. Or not. Oh and that is another cross road I am at, do I continue on with my Bachelors Degree? I know I need to but dang, that is a lot of money. It scares me I won't be able to find a good job that pays well, or maybe I won't be good enough to find a job.
Ok then, this accomplished nothing, so I am off to bed.
2 comments:
It's the season to be grouchy ... I think. I just have no energy to do anything. I can't get motivated.
When we had a goldfish, we only used bottled water in the bowl. I never used tap water. Maybe that would work better. Those gallon jugs of water are around a $1 and so worth it. Maybe that will help. I wonder what the big deal it is to use goldfish instead of bunnies.. life just can't get easy.
School. I would take some time off. Even a week is better then nothing. I would check around town for job opportunities before I went forward with the bachelors degree. If you can't find a job with the degree you get, then I wouldn't go forward. But if there are jobs there waiting for people ... then I would go forward. What do you want to be?
Brady is busy too. It's hard and I hope it is worth it in the end. I hope he can keep up his grades.
I hope the same thing for Autumn. They want to do sooo much but it is a bit stressful. I let Brady stay home from church Sunday because he has been going and going everyday for sooo many weeks and need a break to sleep and catch up on homework.
I think that those are the times that if you do the seminary answers, time magically appears, chores take less time, family is happy and helpful, etc. Set aside a bit of time for those things and you will feel much better! Promise!
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