Fire?

Autumn woke me up this morning about 6 asking if she could get in the shower that her lamp had melted on her pillow and she smelled like smoke. I have to tell you not very often am I in a dead sleep where I don't react to my kids when they come in to speak to me, but I had taken a sleeping pill due to not sleeping the past 2 nights. I was out COLD. Anyways she showered and a while later said her finger had a blister on it and Rich had told her I needed to look at it becuase it was pretty bad. Once again I was still out of it (feel the guilt) and I told her it was up to her whatever she wanted to do . She went to school & when I asked Rich a while later how bad her blister was he said it was pretty big & covered almost her whole knuckle. She went over to my neighbors house because my neighbor has some really good blister cream Autumn had borrowed this summer when she put her hand on a hot stove (insert eye roll) so Michelle fixed her up and off to school she went. When I finally woke up and looked at her lamp it freaked me out. It was melted all the way and totally ruined. So then of course I was worried about Autumn but she never called me. This afternoon when she got home she showed me her blister and it was HUGE and it had already popped. She told me it didn't hurt that much but she did have a hard time writing in class. Then she went downstairs and brought up her pillow to show me where the plastic from the lamp had melted on to her pillow. Then she showed me how her pillowcase had a burn mark all the way through it and burnt into the pillow also. Holy crap it was this close - to starting on fire. Ummm yeah in my daughters bed where she was sleeping. It makes me ill that this has happend. We bought these lamps on clearance at Wal Mart for the girls for Christmas thinking they would be a good reading & night light for them. Needless to say Hope and Tymbers lamps are going in the garbage. I am almost ill over it. Autumn told me to let it go that it was in the past and I needed to get past it. Maybe when my heart starts to beat again I can get past it. Mommy guilt really is a horrible thing. Right now I feel like I should be up for the reward of worst mom.

All Autumn was concerned about was how bad her finger was going to hurt tonight when she went for Baptism for the Dead at the Temple. It is her favorite thing in the world and she was upset to think she might miss it and was willing to go and be in pain to be able to be Baptised. I called one of her Young Women leaders and they told me she could just do the Confirming and not have to get in the water so she has gone off happily to do that instead. Life goes on and all is right in the teenage world. Me, I am sure when I look in the mirror there will be more grey hair.